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<>\n\nIt's a Wednesday evening, and you're visiting at your parents' house for a holiday.\n\nIt's one of the handful of times during the year you drive out to visit your old hometown, and you've seen random people you had gone to school with around town. At least you can leave early if it gets too unbearable.|gotoWork]]<>2: Head into work. Things are going so well..."// she stammers, beginning to tear up.\n\nYou explain to her that it isn't her fault, and that you would love to see her more, but that it's just not something you can rush into right now. Sorry if this is random, I just wanted to tell you I really liked your shirt!" \n\nAll of the motivation and ideas you had when you arrived home vanish in a flash. I can bring her over by your place tonight if you're interested. Hell, I … It is a self-report tool that measures attitude and feelings of depression along with symptom severity. \n\nLet me know!\n\n- A//\n\nYou're still a little embarrassed about how things went last time, but you do genuinely like Amanda and she's one of your oldest friends. \n\nattic: you're up late again i see.\nYou: Yeah. You almost never leave your apartment anymore. Conversation turns flirtatious, and the two of you find yourselves in the bedroom shortly after.<><><>\n\nYou find that you're having trouble getting into things physically with her, and remember that diminished arousal was a possible side effect of your medication. You say you feel too ill and would just be a drag on everyone.\n\nShe sighs a sigh that you've heard many times before. All you want in the world right now is to keep her with you, to make her feel better. You can't help but feel like you've let her down, and you want to fix it. She takes it well, though still seems wounded by it, and the two of you end up having a conversation about how to better manage your schedules so you can see more of each other. "// Malcolm replies, //"Been stressed out lately kiddo? She is the kind of person who holds the opinion that the solution to any problem is to simply try harder and maintain a positive attitude, a stance that has reared its head in past conversations when you've begun to explore the subject with her. Meeting new people stresses you out to a high degree, and this is something you wish you could work past.\n\nYou admit you have a bad habit of flaking on social engagements even with long-time friends, and are puzzled as to why some days you just can't force yourself to go see these people that you really do care about. As you eat you start pacing around your apartment, heading past your bedroom in the process. <><><><><><>
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<>\n<><>You've been in therapy for some time now, and have started to be able to realize what is a rational fear and what is not.
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<>\n\nYou have your first session with your new therapist, Dr. Susan Melville, a tall woman in her mid 40's with a disarming demeanor and patient eyes with the start of the slightest smile lines. Your mind fixates on how everything will go wrong, how you're not even sure what you would say or do when asked to talk about your problems, or how the therapist will probably not even like you. It's one of the few good things in your life, and you feel like you owe her so much for helping you as much as she has. You find yourself spending most of your time absently staring at the clock, trying to will the time to pass more quickly, but this only has the effect of draining you even more. Even though you have a tight knot of antisocial frustration in your stomach, seeing how much she cares makes you want to try to melt it away so you can show her how much you care that she's gone through all this trouble. It was an accepted risk of the decision not to tell her, but you're starting to feel like you made the wrong choice and that too much has happened to bring it up now.<> Though you don't fault her for it, when she expects you to act like a normal person who isn't grappling with a mental illness and you're unable to, it deeply hurts you.\n\n//"I..."// you start to speak but the words choke in your throat. "//\n\nYou sit through a few more sales pitch statements that border on guilt trips and rebut them with fabricated excuses about your landlord not allowing pets before your coworker gives up, and thanks you anyway. ), but you'd have the option to either try to improve your life (crossed out probably) or avoid trying to feel like you have control over your failure (assuming that you'd probably fail anyway). Standing in the middle of the room leaves you feeling kind of exposed, and you don't feel ballsy enough to randomly approach any of the groups of people clustered together talking.\n\nYou head to a clear spot on the back wall, and lean against it. You can't remember how long it's been since you've externalized this much raw emotion.\n\nThe two of you spend several hours in that diner booth, long after your half-eaten food was cleared and the waitress stopped refilling your coffee cups. While the food is not great, you're surprised by how much your mood seems to have elevated just being in her company. Your condition isn't going away any time soon, <>and your therapist has discussed with you how it's very tricky to navigate relationships alongside managing your depression.<> and you're worried that adding a whole new set of challenges to your relationship might be too much to handle right now.<> Moving in seems to you like it would be creating more problems than it would fix in your current state.\n\nAlex looks at you expectantly, and you have a hard time looking her in the eye. One of exasperation, but patience. \n\n1: Force yourself to sleep.\n2: Go to bed. "// You hear his big footsteps walk away from the door, and you splash some water on your face before leaving to rejoin your family.\n\n[[Next.|bonerKiller]]
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<>\n\nIt's 2am on a Sunday, and you have work in the morning. I have a lot of work I can get done if I stay home instead...// Your mind comes up with reason after reason to dissuade you from going, and you eventually talk yourself out of showing up.<>The day of your first appointment is here, and the weight of it is crushing. I was wondering where you'd gone off to. "//\n\n[[Next.|stayingatHome]]\n\n<>
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<>\nYou look at her standing, barely lit, and notice there's a few candles scattered around the apartment. \n\nThere's a second of silence over your phone, but you can swear you can hear the sound of your partner's face fall.\n\nShe tries to convince you anyway. Basically choosing to sit in limbo vs. having a concrete "no" or failure.\n\n//I think this is basically the same as idea seed 24. You know it's not uncommon for her to be out with friends at this hour.\n\nYou leave a voicemail, but end up calling again 15 minutes later. I can't do this anymore..."// she says, though it doesn't feel real. Would she even take it the right way? \n\nYou hop in the passengers seat and compliment him on his new ride and he mentions that it's a perk of a promotion he's recently obtained at work. Really. She continues:\n\n//Many people find adding a pharmacological element to their treatment to be very helpful, and some even prefer to take drugs, completely eliminating their need to visit a therapist at all, providing you rely on your support network and are still reaching out to people. Geplaatst door 27/10/2020 Laat een reactie achter op can you see the flag on the moon from earth with a telescope Unsure of what to say to that, your mind races. You doubt your ability to be much use to him anyway.\n\nYou close everything else on your computer outside of your work project in an effort to refocus your attempts to get the job done, but you still feel like you're hitting a brick wall. To be honest, I really didn't think you'd show. You're verbally flailing for the right answers, and she calls them out as being platitudes. This game would have been dead in the water months ago without you all. "// \n\nYou start to walk through the steps of imagining the two of you living together. I love you.//\n\n[[Next.|partyTime]]\n\n<>
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<>\n<>You reach for the phone to call your brother Malcolm, the member of your family who you feel has always understood you best. \n\nIt ends up being yet another thing for you to beat yourself up over. Any time you've tried to talk to them about your motivation issues, they tell you that the solution is simply to work harder, or want it more. \n\n//"Oh there you are. You leave with a quick goodbye, and curse yourself the entire way home.\n\n[[Next.|copingMechanisms]]\n\n<>
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<>\n\nIt's a sunny Saturday afternoon.\n\nYou're in deep thought on the way home from therapy. Your calm persists as you arrive back home and go through the motions of getting ready for bed, and you're able to sleep with relative ease that night. Say whatever you can to make her stay, regardless of your concerns.|hideyourFeelings]]\n[[6: Yes, there has been distance. You try to sort out what you really want to do here. } var text = ''; His best finish was in sixth place, and his first win was in 2002 at Aaron's 312 in Atlanta. "//\n\nYou pull her closer. //"Hey kiddo, you alright in there? As you watch houses and cars zip by, he asks //"Anything you want to talk about? It's one you would have to spill your guts to adequately describe, which would be an almost impossible feat to perform at the moment. Your heart starts to race - is this one of those "we need to talk" situations? When you were in high school you had much larger plans, and you feel like you've failed to manifest most of them. You desperately want her to say something, to tell you how she's feeling about all of this but you're too afraid of what the answer would be to ask. You feel bad about effectively forcing the two of you to stay in tonight, again. \n\nShe says it lovingly, but you're not quite sure how you feel about that statement.\n\n[[Next.|Mom]]\n\n<>
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